ramblings.

A lot has happened I feel like since the last time I posted but I feel like its all in my head. Not that im crazy its just that ive been thinking about a lot of things recently so it feels like ive been up to a lot. There has been a number of things that has made this week just unbelievably weird/ not ok.
1. Ive been feeling ill for the past week or so. My stomach is in constant pain after every thing I eat. At first I thought it was just the usual stomach acid problem I have but it stays in my stomach whereas usually it goes from my stomach to my chest and then my throat. Anyways, so my appetite has gone downhill and my body is having constant heat flashes. One second ill be freezing my bum off and the next im sweating non-stop regardless of the freezing temperature outside. I dont really know what it is but I may or may not have internal fever and that just sucks in my opinion. I feel weak and dizzy constantly as well :/
2. I found out my friend is getting married via LJ.... definitely not the way I would have liked that to go down but what can you do?
3. I worked 40 hours this week which is NOT what I signed up to do! grrrr.
4. I got harassed at work by some giant man. I would go into detail because the story is actually quite interesting but again, I dont feel good and I doubt anyone actually cares.
5. Fasfa and taxes....enough said.
6. I keep thinking about how im leaving my boyfriend and of course its making me real depressed. Ugh how come I cant have everything I want without giving something incredibly important up? I keep thinking to myself that if we are meant to be together we will be. I just have to replay that in my head until I feel better I guess.
7. I cant really think of the 7th reason but Im sure there is one somewhere!

On a lighter note, I have been so obsessed with thinking about love, relationship, marriage and everything in between! I am constantly talking to my co-worker Laura about it because shes married and the things she has to say are soooo exciting! I want that love where you never stop flirting with each other no matter how long you have been dating. I want that exciting love where randomly each one of you do little special things for the other just because you know it will make them smile! *sigh* I guess its time to watch a sappy romance film and call it a night!