Cautious Lip

Finally updating after couple weeks of hiatus. I should be updating this site soon (pictures etc.)

My life has been nothing short of normal. Plain, boring and just dull over all. I guess it doesnt help that I live in one dud of a town. I honestly dont understand the people who are completely content here. My boyfriend being one of them...I guess its just for people who like to either 1. stay home and do..well nothing or 2. people who have no other desire but to get smashed on weekends and kiss/sex multiple gusy. All in all, Pullman is not for me and thats ok, its not for everyone. The more I think about American life/culture, the more I hate it. I mean once you have seen more than what is america, you start to realize that its really not all that here. I am perfectly content knowing that my residence expires in two years.

One of the things that I wrap my mind around is the huge obsession with the superbowl. People who dont even watch football go crazy on this day and for what? A football game? I mean in the end if youre not a huge sports fan, its really just another game and its not that cool. I had to work today, which meant we were slammed up until 3:30 which is when the game started. I just dont get it and never really will. People throw parties and watch the superbowl, people throw parties and dont even watch the superbowl...irs doesnt make any sense and its just another example of how society eats people up!

On a much lighter note (im cranky right now because 1. i woke up at 7 for no apparent reason and couldnt go back to sleep and 2. I just worked a 9 hour shift and could possibly drop dead right now.) Its mine and Nicks one year <3. Its hard to believe its been one year already. Crazy. Its even hard to believe its February! Our year was definitely amazing but lately ive been in a funk. I am that kind of girl that needs excitement, passion, romance and overall attention in a relationship...and im getting almost none of that. Just because we have been dating for a year doesnt mean you cant flirt with me, surprise me, give me some excitement once in awhile. I feel like im married, and even though I am dying to get married, i fucking hope this isnt what married life is like.

I had a crazy dream about Stephen. It was weird considering I havent thought about him since we last saw each other. Its definitely the first time I have gone so long without the thought of him popping into my head and im so relieved. There is no better feeling than knowing your first love isnt suffocating you constantly. Speaking of which, Jonas and I are friends again? Its feels good to know im not the biggest bitch he has ever known!


well Im rambling. I should be updating this more often, I just need more motivation.

P.S- Simon Rex was in my town and I didnt see him....FML!