Cautious Lip

As most of you already know, at least those of you who know me, I decided to move back to Madeira with my family. I have been thinking about this for a few months now and always turned it down for whatever reason but I don't think I can turn it down anymore. I miss my family beyond belief and I just feel like I lost a sense of myself being here pretty much alone. Everything I used to think was important no longer makes any sense, and i barely have any motivation to work for the future I was promised here in the states. I have actually never been a big fan of the states anyways and I don't really have sort of support besides my estranged father who moved to Wisconsin and my older brother who's in the army. I have never been one to depend on other people who aren't members of my family so I decided to stick to my gut and leave. I need their guidance and their company more than I need anything else right now so its what's best.
Of course i'll miss my friends and Nick but I like to look at the positive side especially in a situation like this. Im going to be living on a gorgeous island with the people I absolutely adore the most. Im going to be in EUROPE aka I can take a 50 euro trip to London WHENEVER I want!! I can also visit my Aunt in Venice whenever I want and its going to be all around amazing to be able to visit any european country without hassle or money issues. After the death of my cousin and my grandma last year, I really just dont want to miss out on anymore of my family's life . I want to be there every step of the way and I want them to be there and watch me grow as well. It all sounds super cheesy but it makes perfect sense in my head which is what counts. Im really excited and I already put in me two weeks at work. I'm really excited! I want to just skip all the sad parts and go already!

isnt it just beautiful over there?

Also my dog in Venezuela just had puppies and my mom decided to keep one! He is soooo precious and I cant wait to snuggle with him :) here are pictures!