Cautious Lip

Ok so I wasnt feeling Carrie, so I changed it to Ashlee. The real inspiration for changing it to Ashlee Simpson was because I got a comment again today saying I looked like her if you take away her hair color and eye color. I always get that comment and although I dont necessarily agree, I accept it cause I love her so much and cause I have been getting that since sophomore year of high school. I can see it in some pictures, we both have really pronounced chins, the same shaped eyes, smile, lips and a small face....however the nose kinda messed it all up haha, but in other pictures I dont see it at all haha. Its flattering though <3

I have had one of the worst days ever. Aside from having a terrible migraine my best friend in Portugal is really sick. His family (his mom is my grandpa's brother's wife....difficult I know) has this genetic life long illness called Familial Periodic Paralyses. Basically its when your potassium level is low...its a lot more complicated than that though. You're basically born with a muscle gene mutation causing your muscles to become paralyzed for a period of time due to cold weather, too much activity, and a bunch of other things. It starts with migraines and dizziness, nausea etc then suddenly you cant move at all, youre basically paralyzed for however long (usually lasts from hours to days.) Its a really sad sad illness and although its not fatal, its life long...and they have yet to find a cure. Well turns out my friend is in a state of paralyses. I hurt for him, I really do. He is my best friend and basically the guy my whole family wants me to marry...which is a really funny story. I hope he gets out of it soon. I cant imagine going through so much pain :(

Today was also one of my friend's wedding. It was so emotional and really beautiful!! Weddings are so surreal to me. I am the girl who has been dreaming about her wedding day since I was 7 or so. Its funny cause I always talk to my mom about how i want my wedding, what songs need to be played, color coordination's, where im going to have it etc etc. I definitely want to get married in a church...my whole family is catholic, and its basically the most holy thing you can possibly do, and if i dont im basically banned from my family forever hahah. I also want it in Portugal. Those two are already set in stone haha.

anyways my migraine is killing me :(