love?

I have never dated anyone who has had a long term relationship before until I started dating Nick. He dated this girl for 2 years in high school and although I was never jealous of her, I was always some what jealous of how long they dated and the memories and what not and always felt like I needed to compete and make our relationship better, mostly because, again, I never dated anyone with this history before and I didn't want to be just another girl.  He has always made a point to make me feel super special and important, just randomly without me asking which leads me to believe its true and he has also said numerous times that he has never felt this way about someone before....of course being a girl who has dated a few guys i just though he was just sweet talking me, but he's not like that and im glad! Last night we sat we talked for hours and hours about life, just everything there was to talk about we talked about...and we came across our previous relationships, he said a couple things that really made me realize that I really have absolutely nothing to worry about.  I know now that if we were to ever break up, I would be the girl that made the impact on his life and heart and I will be the girl he will always remember as his first love. In a weird way it makes me feel really satisfied and extremely good! I dont know why I needed that to make me feel better, I just dont like feeling like i'm his "other girlfriend" or the "new girl" or even worse "sloppy seconds" the thought of that really makes me hurl,so this just makes me feel more confident. I know what he means though because I can look back on all the guys I have had something with and I dont really feel anything (except for my mr. big...who is just a big Jackass) and feel nothing, sure it was cool at the time  and maybe at the time I thought it was super special,but its nothing to fuzz over now and this is just so much better.

sorry this post was extremely personal, and usually I wont really write these feelings out, but I like to read back on my posts and I know this is going to be a good one to look back in a 5 years haha.