I got used to living without you
Endless phone calls and dreaming about you
Always said that you were my man to be
But I guess I was in love with your memory
You know I love you, I really do
But I can't fight anymore for you
And I don't know, maybe we'll be together again
Sometime, in another life
In another life
A couple days ago I was listening to my broken heart playlist (which I KNEW was a bad decision right from the get go) and I completely broke down. For those of you who dont know, my "broken heart" playlist is full of songs that remind me of Stephen, the guy I wrote about a few entries back. Its unfortunate because I was finally starting to forget him. I really was! I should have known that one song or one memory would make me lose it completely. So I have a question: How do you completely forget about your first love who has completely ruined your life and didnt get any closure from? I know the fact that we havent had any "closure" is the main reason this situation is killing me, and has been for so long but I really dont see it happening, at all. I really just want this to end. Its hurt more than any other break up I have ever gone through and I think its really about time its over.
I have this weird habit of making connections with songs and people. There isnt a song that I listen to that doesnt remind me of someone, something or a certain memory. I am not sure if I am the only one who does this, but Im also not sure if I like it. I would like to listen to my favorite songs that dont suddenly remind me of someone I want to forget. Does anyone else do this? Im weird, I know.
On a lighter note, I bought some of the M.A.C Hello Kitty make-up! Im not really into make-up mostly because I all for natural beauty, but I could not pass up Hello kitty. I bought blush and a tinted moisturizer for your lips. I loooooooove both of them and really recommend everyone to get some! Its funny that this line coming out suddenly reminded everyone that Hello Kitty exists. I have heard a million girls talk about how they liked Hello Kitty since they were born, but honestly? Suddenly the whole worlds love her? I dont buy it.
p.s- Sorry for the lack of substance in this post, I really have nothing interesting going on my life besides the irrational thoughts going in my mind. I did however change the header picture to Scarlett Johansson because I am obsessed with her.
2 comments:
Let's just run away together and travel all over the world 'til we find the place we'd love to stay. Thank you for the words of encouragement, for I have needed them lately. I hope things work out for you and I can't wait to hear about YOUR adventures. Or OUR adventures (:
Oh god, I completely understand! I have huge connections with songs to the point where I can't even listen to the band anymore. :( I didn't listen to Explosions in the Sky for a year after my boyfriend and I broke up. Fuck.
Anyways, I hope you feel better, soon.<3 And I'm glad to hear the Hello Kitty makeup is cute! :D When I was four or so we had a Japanese exchange student stay with us that we've stayed in contact with ever since, and she used to bring me Hello Kitty stuff. I LOVED IT ALL. :D Ever-cute.
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